The Lord pressed on my heart about two years ago 'BIG POTS'.
Yes, I said big pots.
I don't know why, or rather...why me. But he did.
Here is my story of the ‘big pots’.
Just to give you a little in sight to that day, vision with me this scene…I’m sitting on the floor of a fire station kitchen, alone, feeding my one month old beautiful baby girl! (Our church group was meeting at this local fire station on Sunday evenings, and this was the only other room you could go to and be ‘alone’ besides the bathroom!) I remember being very, very tired that day. (I had been on a hormone rollercoaster for the last 9+ months. I could be laughing one minute and crying nonstop the next!) So, there I sat, on a cold fire house kitchen floor, leaned against a freezer, nursing.
The following is how I remember the conversion…
‘See those big pots; you are going to need those one day’.
And of course I said, ‘Um, no I am not!’.
‘Yes, you are.’
‘Really Lord, look I have enough children, and you are telling me I will need those ‘big pots’! I don’t think so.’
And that was it. That was all that was said.
Months went by and I thought nothing more about that night.
It wasn’t until my trip to Guatemala, did he once again remind me of the ‘big pots’.
And of course I said, ‘Um, Lord, really you have the wrong person. I can’t handle ‘big pots’!’
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"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Josh 1:9
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I don't know what it is. I am such a jumbled mess! Over this past year, the Lord has REALLY been breaking my heart for His children all over the world! The ‘big pots’ are being seen and felt everywhere I go. I don’t understand and am learning everyday that I don’t need to understand, I just need to be obedient. I have a ton of questions I would LOVE to UNDERSTAND and would love even more to have the answers too, but right now he is just calling me and asking me
‘Are you willing to be obedient even when you don’t understand?’
And to that I say ~Yes, Lord I am. Only with you can I handle the ‘big pots’ you are planning for me!
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Please pray for us as we continue to walk this adoption out! I am learning all too well when you step out in obedience to God, you engage the enemy!! And I am definitely learning that when you step out in obedience to God in an adoption...you might as well set off a flare letting him know where you live!! BUT ~ that’s OK ~ we are ready to fight! I have let way too many things really get to me here lately and that will STOP today ~ Thanks in advance for your continued prayers for me and my family!
XOXO to you all J
